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Friday, April 1, 2011

This Article Seems Pretty Relevant after the past month of my life....read on...its pretty intetresting!!



Test your knowledge...see how much you know about your body and your stress levels...you might be surprised.  These facts are pretty interesting!!!


41 Random Facts About . . .Stress

Stress has been called “the silent killer” and can lead to heart disease, high blood pressure, chest pain, and an irregular heartbeat.d


While it is a myth that stress can turn hair gray, stress can cause hair loss. In fact, telogen effluvium (hair loss) can begin up to three months after a stressful event.j


In 2009, the top most stressful jobs were a surgeon, commercial airline pilot, photojournalist, advertising account executive, and real estate agent. The least stressful jobs were actuary, dietitian, astronomer, systems analyst, and software engineer.l




The top three stressful cities in America are Chicago, Ilinois; Los Angeles, California; and New York, New York.i


Stress alters the neurochemical makeup of the body, which can affect the maturation and release of the human egg. Stress can also cause the fallopian tubes and uterus to spasm, which can affect implantation. Stress in men can affect sperm count and motility and can cause erectile dysfunction. In fact, stress may account for 30% of all infertility problems.b


Stress can make acne worse. Researchers say stress-related inflammation rather than a rise is sebum (the oily substance in skin) is to blame.p






Laughter is a powerful stress reducer









Laughing lowers stress hormones (like cortisol, epinephrine, and adrenaline) and strengthens the immune system by releasing health-enhancing hormones.o


The stress hormone cortisol not only causes abdominal fat to accumulate, but it also enlarges individual fat cells, leading to what researchers call “diseased” fat.d


Stress is linked to the six leading causes of death: heart disease, cancer, lung ailments, accidents, liver cirrhosis, and suicide.f


The stress of caring for a disabled spouse increases the risk of stroke substantially.o


Chronic stress can impair the developmental growth in children by lowering the production of growth hormone from the pituitary gland.m


A 2009 CNN poll reveals that the number one reason for stress in most countries is money. The countries most stressed about money are Malaysia, China, Singapore, and the United States. The countries least stressed about money are Russia, France, and Italy.a


The term “stress” derives from the Latin stringere (to draw tight).j


Stress causes capillaries to close, which restricts bleeding if a flesh wound should occur.f


Pupils dilate (mydriasis) during stress much the same way they dilate in response to attraction: to gather more visual information about a situation.f


Chronic stress floods the brain with powerful hormones that are meant for short-term emergency situations. Chronic exposure can damage, shrink, and kill brain cells.o


A 2003 study found that women with moderate levels of stress were at lower risk for suicide than those women who had very high or very low levels of stress.j


Scientists suggest that stress is part of the evolutionary drive because it has enabled humans to survive. Specifically, stress temporarily increases awareness and improves physical performance.n


Stress makes the blood “stickier,” in preparation for an injury. Such a reaction, however, also increases the probability of developing a blood clot.d






Eating moderate levels of dark chocolate reduces stress hormone levels




Research has shown that dark chocolate reduces stress hormones such as cortisol and other fight-flight hormones. Additionally, cocoa is rich in antioxidants called flavonoids.o


Chronic stress increases cytokines, which produce inflammation. Exposure to constant inflammation can damage arteries and other organs.j



Stress can alter blood sugar levels, which can cause mood swings, fatigue, hyperglycemia, and metabolic syndrome, a major risk factor for heart attack and diabetes.f


Chronic stress worsens irritable bowel syndrome (IBS), a condition that irritates the large intestine and causes constipation, cramping, and bloating.j


Peptic ulcers are caused by the H.pylori bacteria or the use of NSAIDS—not stress. However, stress can exacerbate ulcers and keep them from healing.j


Chronic stress decreases the body’s immune system’s response to infection and can affect a person’s response to immunizations.m


Studies show that HIV-infected men are more likely to progress to AIDS if they are under high stress than those with lower levels of stress.m


Stress can increase the ability of chemicals to pass the blood-brain barrier, which shields neurons from some poisons, viruses, toxins, and other fluctuations in normal blood chemistry.g


Acoustic stress (caused by loud noises) can trigger an episode of Long QT Syndrome (LQTS), a disorder of the heart’s electrical system. LGTS is estimated to cause as many as 3,000 deaths in the U.S. each year.g


Young people from military families who have a deployed parent report higher levels of stress and emotional problems than other adolescents and teens.h


Stress increases the risk of pre-term labor and intrauterine infection. Additionally, chronic levels of stress place a fetus at greater risk for developing stress-related disorders and affect the fetus’s temperament and neurobehavioral development.e


Post-traumatic stress physically changes children’s brains; specifically, stress shrinks the hippocampus, a part of the brain that stores and retrieves memories.m






Stress balls work by massaging acupuncture points in the hand










Chinese stress balls (Baoding balls) were created during the Ming dynasty (1368-1644) in Baoding, China. Originally made of iron, the balls are thought to relieve stress because they touch pressure or acupuncture points on the hand.j


Stress can result in more headaches as a result of the body rerouting blood flow to other parts of the body.j


The hyper-arousal of the body’s stress response system can lead to chronic insomnia.j


An early record of post-traumatic stress syndrome dates from the eighth century B.C. in Homer’s Iliad when Achilles suffers severe battle stress in the Trojan War. Achilles complains of feeling emotionally “numb” or “dead” and expresses suicidal thoughts and rage.m


In Shakespeare’s Henry IV, Lady Percy’s description of her battle-worn husband, Harry Hotspur, is surprisingly similar to the symptoms of actual post-traumatic syndrome, such as feeling estranged from others, difficulty sleeping, exhibiting an exaggerated startle, dysphoria, and strong anxiety.m


When cells shrink due to exposure to stress hormones, they disconnect from each other, which contributes to depression.o


Men are more likely than women to develop certain stress-related disorders, including hypertension, aggressive behavior, and abuse of alcohol and drugs.o




Chronic low-level noise and low-frequency noise below the threshold of human hearing provoke stress hormones that can interfere with learning and can also elevate blood pressure, degrade the immune system, and increase aggression.g


Stress creates hormonal changes in the human body that can decrease libido and sex response. However, the BBC reports that penetrative sex (as opposed to other types of sex, such as masturbation) decreased stress hormones while those who had no sex had the highest blood pressure.k


Extreme or sudden emotional trauma can lead to “broken heart syndrome”(BHS), or stress cardiomyopathy (severe heart muscle weakness). This condition occurs rapidly, and usually in women. In Japan, BHS is called “octopus trap cardiomyopathy” because the left ventricle balloons out in a peculiar shape.c


-- Posted February 19, 2010






References






a Barthelemy, Claire. “Poll: Money Worries World’s Greatest Cause of Stress.” CNN.com. September 30, 2009. Accessed: January 28, 2010.






b Bouchez, Colette. “Stress and Infertility.” WebMD.com. Accessed: January 31, 2010.






c “Broken Heart Syndrome.” MayoClinic.com. Accessed: January 28, 2010.






d Chilnick, Lawrence. 2008. Heart Disease: An Essential Guide for the Newly Diagnosed. Philadelphia, PA: Perseus Books Group.






e “Fetus to Mom: You’re Stressing Me Out!” MedicineNet.com. Accessed: January 30, 2010.






f “How Does Stress Affect Us?” American Psychological Association. Accessed: January 30, 2010.






g “The Human Brain.” The Franklin Institute. Accessed: January 27, 2010.






h Landau, Elizabeth. “Military Teens Have More Stress.” CNN.com. December 8, 2009. Accessed: January 29, 2010.






i Lynch, Sara. “America’s Most Stressful Cities.” Forbes.com. August 20, 2009. Accessed: January 27, 2010.






j McEwen, Bruce. 2003. The End of Stress as We Know It. Washington, D.C.: Joseph Henry Press.






k “Sex Cuts Public Speaking Stress.” BBC. January 26, 2006. Accessed: January 30, 2010.






l Tachmincioglu, Eve. “Survey: Surgeons, Pilots Top List of Stressful Jobs.” MSNBC.com. November 24, 2009. Accessed: January 30, 2010.






m Van der Kolk, Bessel, et. al. 2007. Traumatic Stress: The Effects of Overwhelming Experience on Mind, Body, and Society. New York, NY: The Guilford Press.





n Van Duyne, Sara. 2003. Stress and Anxiety-Related Disorders. Berkeley Heights, NJ: Enslow Publishers.





o Wallenstein, Gene. 2003. Mind, Stress, and Emotion: The New Science of Mood. Boston, MA: Commonwealth Press.





p Warner, Jennifer. “Stress Makes Teen Acne Worse.” WebMD.com. March 7, 2002. Accessed: January 30, 2010.



I added the pictures for humor...lol...stress is a bad mutha...if you dont learn to manage it...it can kill you...I am learning to better control my stress and learn to relax for my health, but it is hard for me.  Baby steps is all I can manage right now...lol!!


Chinese Proverb ~ Tension is who you think you should be. Relaxation is who you are ~





Sunday, January 2, 2011

35 by 35

On March 17, 2012, I will be 35 years old.  There are some things that I have been wanting to accomplish by this age, namely having my own business and starting a family.  In the spirit of the new year and inspired by one of my favorite bloggers Fat Bridesmaid, many of these goals will hopefully be accomplished, or well on their was in 2011 and give me a push for great things next year!


  1. Get acupuncture
  2. Begin practicing yoga and meditation
  3. See a Broadway play
  4. Visit California
  5. Learn to play guitar
  6. Learn Italian
  7. Go back to school
  8. Learn to drive
  9. Move into my grandmother's house
  10. Reach my goal weight
  11. Take a roadtrip with friends
  12. Write a book
  13. Start a podcast with my husband 
  14. Learn to relax
  15. Have a spa weekend with the girls
  16. Seriously get the business plans that I started underway 
  17.  Sell unneeded items in the house and declutter
  18. Pay down student loans
  19. Create a budget and stick to it
  20. Take advantage of free activities and entertainment
  21. Spend more time with family and friends
  22. Be more appreciative of what I have and stop taking things for granted
  23. Resume my healthier eating habits established last year 
  24. Create a documentary about being plus size
  25. Continue seeking out acting opportunities
  26. Volunteer more
  27. Spend more time outside
  28. Try to develop some common interests with my husband
  29. Work on my marriage, strengthen and protect the integrity
  30. Find myself
  31. Get a job that makes me happy
  32. Travel more
  33. Save money
  34. Blog regularly
  35. Learn to knit or crochet

Friday, December 31, 2010

2010-The good, The Bad and The Ugly--2011, bring on the good stuff!!


As 2010 draws to a close, looking back, it has been a long and painful year in many respects. The fibro monster reared its ugly head and took over my life for most of the year, affecting my health, my job, my marriage and other relationships.  I also lost one of the most important people in my life on 9/7/10, my grandma Kate.  Though she lived a long life and almost made it until her 94th birthday, her absence resonates.  2010 was also 5 years since my beloved sister Sabrina passed away. I don't feel as if I have been the same since her passing, as if part of me died with her.

Though it may seem if 2010 was a complete wash out, I did manage to have a few happy moments! I was able to lose quite a bit of weight by learning a lot more about fibromyalgia through the help of a nutritionist.  I got to be on stage again and in an indie film.  I made some wonderful new acquaintances, and reconnected with some old friends. We were blessed with the opportunity to spend Thanksgiving and Christmas with our families who are all relatively healthy.  So many wonderful things were happening for my friends and acquaintances  as well this year and I was able to share the joy of new jobs, new houses, new relationships, and new babies although even vicariously.

My wish for 2011 is to find myself again.  I feel that I have gotten lost somehow over the years and I want to find happiness and inner peace. Whatever that is.


We will open the book. Its pages are blank. We are going to put words on them ourselves. The book is called Opportunity and its first chapter is New Year's Day. Edith Lovejoy Pierce


Tuesday, June 8, 2010

Busy, Busy, Busy!


It has been almost 2 months since I have written in this particular blog, but life has been extremely busy.  Trying to feel better, trying to be more active...all has taken up a lot of my writing time!

I have lost over 40 pounds since the end of February, due in part to the anti-inflamatory diet I have been on since the beginning of April, which you can read about in my other blog What's Eating Danielle. I am happy to have lost the weight, I still have a lot more to go, but it is a great start and am proud of myself!

I also started auditioning again.  Every time we go see a show, I remember what it was like being on stage, and I wanted to have that feeling again!  I have had three auditions so far for plays and one audition for an indie film.  They all went well, and am waiting on the outcome--I hate waiting!!  The first audition was for Pittsburgh Shakespeare in the Parks, Much Ado About Nothing.   I wasn't as prepared for my audition as I should have been (i.e. didn't have my monologues completely memorized) and I didn't get in.  I was not upset.  It was my first audition in a long time. I was proud of my self for going!  My second audition was for McCaffery Mysteries, Inc., a non-profit murder mystery dinner theater company who donates some of their profits to local charity organizations.  Hopefully I will be doing a show with them in September.  Lastly, I auditioned for Fairest, the Black Tale of Snow White with Rage of the Stage Players.  I have seen a few of their shows, and love the twisted fairytales!! My audition went very well, so hopefully I will hear a positive outcome soon!

The pain has not let up much, unfortunately.  I am scheduled to start a six week pain management program on 6/23 and hopefully will be back to work some time in August.I have been fighting with the short term disability company and have to appeal, so money has been extremely tight.  The doctors don;t want me to return to work until I have completed the pain management program, yet they fail to send in the disability paperwork--this whole process has been a nightmare!!! I am in a ton of pain and so stressed out!  I wish I felt better and was able to go back to work, but right now I can't, and my job does not have work from home or part time for people in my position, so I just will have to play the waiting game.

I pray that this pain management program will help ease the pain that I have been experiencing over the past few months.  In the almost 10 years I have had fibromyalgia, this is the worst that I have felt and I hope that I never have to go through this again!!

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

Calgon, Take Me Away!!!

I have been in severe pain the past few days, perhaps I over did it on the weekend, and now I am paying the price.   Tired, extreme pain, etc, etc, etc. What else is new?????  On the bright side, I just started seeing a holistic health counselor, which you can read about in my other blog What's Eating Danielle,  who put me on an anti-inflammatory diet, which I started today. Hopefully everything I have been doing thus far, and will continue to do, along with this new diet, continued exercise and additional measures that will be recommended after my evaluations with the pain clinic, will get my body back on track and I can manager the fibromyalgia like I was before this setback.

Sunday, April 18, 2010

Healing the Mind, Helping the Body!

I have had a great few days!!! Though still in a lot of pain, my mental attitude has improved significantly and allowed me to have some fun finally, after almost two months of misery!

Friday night, I went out with my husband for a bit to a Four Square event.  He is very social media and tech savvy and it is important for us to support each other's very different interests.  We did not stay very long because there were bad storms passing through, but at least we got out of the house for a little while!

Saturday we spent the day with my family with my parents, grandmother and 3 year old nephew Giovanni, who we love very much!! He is so smart, energetic, and just brightens up our lives!! Chris and I hope to have a child in the next few years, once we get our health and finances in order, but if it is not in the cards, at least we already have a wonderful little boy to spoil!! After that, I went home and passed out for the night while Chris went to the movies with his best friend.

Today Chris and I went our separate ways-he to watch the penguins with his friends and I to a birthday celebration with my friends.  Our plan was to originally go to a bit of both together, but since  I am not a huge sports fan and he did not know most of the people at the party,  we went to our own events and enjoyed ourselves immensely!

I know that my recent illness has affected our marriage.  I am irritable and in extreme pain.  My husband is loving, caring, and supportive, but does not understand my illness. He felt bad to leave me to go out with friends and I have had to yell at him to make him go out. As a person who has lived with this illness for almost 10 years, and lived alone for 5 years,  I am not used to people wanting to constantly  take care of me. I know its a part of marriage that I need to get used to, a partnership, but I have always been financially and socially independent.  I married my husband because I love him and because we have been through a lot together, not to have him take care of me!  This issue however for another time....

All in all, fabulous weekend!!  Meeting with the nutritionist tomorrow and started a new blog What's Eating Danielle to track the nutrition part of the journey.

Wednesday, April 14, 2010

You Are What You Eat

I had a very wonderful meeting today with a Holistic Health Counselor.  I found her company,  Full Well , through a Facebook link.  I chose to meet with her, because as I am on this journey to a happier, healthier life, I know that my eating habits are not the best.  I want to lose weight, have more energy, take control of my life back from the fibromyalgia, and PCOS that has plagued me for years!

Leah has also struggled with the Fibromyalgia and Chronic Fatigue issues, so I am interested to learn from her how she has healed herself through nutrition and lifestyle changes. I know that changing established routines and ways of eating may be hard at first.  But I am ready to face this challenge head on!  This time that I have had off, I have begun to take better care of myself, to listen to my body, and lost 24 pounds in the process, but that is just the first step.

I am hoping to never have another relapse like this again! I have learned so much about myself, and I am learning more every day.  My mind is open to new possibilities, and hopefully a healthier, happier new me will be debuting to the world within the next few months!!

Friday, April 9, 2010

If I Were...



Borrowed from fellow blogger F B:
If I Were:
If I were a month I would be August.
If I were a day I would be Friday.
If I were a time of day I would be 5 PM.
If I were a font I would be Playbill.
If I were a sea animal I would be a dolphin.
If I were a direction I would be Southwest.
If I were a piece of furniture I would be a leopard chaise lounge.
If I were a liquid I would be a glass of Riesling or a Pomegranate Martini.
If I were a gemstone I would be Aquamarine.
If I were a tree I would be a Mighty Oak.
If I were a writing tool I would be a gel pen.
If I were a flower I would be a bright Gerber daisy.
If I were an element of weather I would be a cooling rain on a hot summer day.
If I were a musical instrument I would be a trombone.
If I were a color I would be burnt orange.
If I were an emotion I would be contentment.
If I were a fruit I would be a pomegranate.
If I were a sound I would be merriment.
If I were an element I would be Lithium.
If I were a car I would be classic.
If I were a food I would be a dark chocolate cupcake.
If I were a place I would be Disney World.
If I were a material I would be wool.
If I were a taste I would be zesty.
If I were a scent I would be cotton candy.
If I were a body part I would be your voice.
If I were a song I would be sung by Ani DiFranco
If I were a bird I would be a sparrow.
If I were a gift I would be personalized.
If I were a city I would be Pittsburgh.
If I were a door I would be open.
If I were a pair of shoes I would be comfortable, flat and funky.
If I were a poem I would be Phenomenal Woman by Maya Angelou:


Pretty women wonder where my secret lies.
I'm not cute or built to suit a fashion model's size
But when I start to tell them,
They think I'm telling lies.
I say,
It's in the reach of my arms
The span of my hips,
The stride of my step,
The curl of my lips.
I'm a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.

I walk into a room
Just as cool as you please,
And to a man,
The fellows stand or
Fall down on their knees.
Then they swarm around me,
A hive of honey bees.
I say,
It's the fire in my eyes,
And the flash of my teeth,
The swing in my waist,
And the joy in my feet.
I'm a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.

Men themselves have wondered
What they see in me.
They try so much
But they can't touch
My inner mystery.
When I try to show them
They say they still can't see.
I say,
It's in the arch of my back,
The sun of my smile,
The ride of my breasts,
The grace of my style.
I'm a woman

Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.

Now you understand
Just why my head's not bowed.
I don't shout or jump about
Or have to talk real loud.
When you see me passing
It ought to make you proud.
I say,
It's in the click of my heels,
The bend of my hair,
the palm of my hand,
The need of my care,
'Cause I'm a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.

What would you be?

Wednesday, April 7, 2010

A Glimmer of Hope

In my quest to return to my normal way of life, I have been doing everything imaginable to try to get better.  Water Aerobics, Chiropractic, Massage, Therapy, you name it, I am doing it!  Along with resting a lot, eating right and trying to move around as much as possible, I hope these positive changes will make a difference in the way that I feel!!

Today, I found out that I am severely Vitamin D deficient, and that possibly could be contributing to my increased pain and fatigue I have been experiencing the past few months.  My doctor prescribed me 50,000 IU of Vitamin D for the next 8 weeks, so hopefully that will get my levels where they should be, I will have more energy and less pain, as long as I continue everything else that I am doing as well.  

Hopefully this new information will be key on the road to recovery and getting my life back so that I can focus on my goals again!

Thursday, April 1, 2010

I Love My Husband!!!






Our first 7 months of marriage have been filled with many ups and downs, mainly because of me.  I thank my husband for standing by me through everything.  In sickness and in health, for richer and for poorer, as long as we both shall live!


To My Husband:
  • I love your beautiful blue eyes and the way you look at me
  • I love your quiet and unassuming manner
  • I love the way that you are always trying to clam me down and get me to relax
  • I love how laid back and easy going you are
  • Thank you for being there for the good and bad times
  • Though this is a rough patch, I am confident things will get better, I will get better soon
  • I love you with all of my heart!




"I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best."



— Marilyn Monroe

When Life Gives You Lemons...


Expect trouble as an inevitable part of life, and when it comes, hold your head high, look it quarely in the eye and say, 'I will be bigger than you. You cannot defeat me.'--Ann Landers



It's been a rough few days dealing with the Fibro monster.  I have barely been able to get out of bed due to the stiffness, pain and constant migraines. But, I must go on, I cannot let this disease defeat me! 

My brain is telling me to do more, to clean, to try to regain some normalcy in my life.  But my body is resisting. It has been a month since this recent relapse, and I am still no closer to finding out the exact cause.  Was it the medication increase, then withdrawal, is it just the fibromyalgia flaring up, or is there something else wrong?? All I can do at this point is keep exercising, watch what I eat, rest as much as possible and try to keep a positive outlook on my situation.  

Although I am ill, I am thankful for the ability to move around, for a loving, caring husband and family and supportive friends. Some people have none of these!  I thank God everyday for all that I have been blessed with and giving me the strength carry on! I pray that one day soon, they can figure out what caused this illness and put me on a path to recovery!

Friday, March 26, 2010

29-Day Giving Challenge


By giving,” Mbali told her, “you are focusing on what you have to offer others, inviting more abundance into your life.”--Cami Walker-29 Day Giving Challenge




I am always working on myself, but I enjoy helping others better their lives as well. Whether it be helping a friend with a resume, find someone an awesome new job, or helping someone feel better about themselves by suggesting a new look; these are the things that I enjoy immensely and want to do more of!

In the spirit of helping myself and helping others, I joined the 29 Gifts Movement.  Thanks to my friend  S's blog for introducing me to this site! It is as simple as lending a hand, donating a clothing, or even just smiling at someone.  


Today I made a promise to myself to do more every day! As I am working through my illness, I cannot forget those that depend on me and need me to be well.  I cooked my husband and myself a healthy, filling meal and spent some much needed quality time with him.  This is day one, we shall see what tomorrow brings!



You give but little when you give of your possessions. It is when you give of yourself that you truly give.

What Get's You Through A Bad Time is Not Necessarily A Good Thing!


I have been learning a lot about myself lately and how I cope with my illness, stress, disappointment; or rather the lack thereof in my coping skills. The following vices that I have used in the past to get me through a hard time are not the answer to my problems:
  • Compulsive Shopping/Spending- overspending at a sale, buying unnecessary items, having no where to put your stuff because your cabinets/drawers/closets are too full , having clothes in the closet with tags still on them that were never worn, too late to return.
    • Binging on a good day or bad day is not the answer.  There are other less expensive ways to reward or console yourself on a bad day. There is no reason to have so many unworn clothes!  There is no reason to buy new clothes while I am losing weight because hopefully in a few months, they won't fit anyway. Buy ONLY WHAT IS NECESSARY!!!  Need to take care of the items that I have and get rid of unworn/unused items and focus on getting rid of and de-cluttering and not bring anything more into the house until it is absolutely necessary!
  • Excessive Drinking-Enjoying a drink every once in a while with friends is not a bad thing, but it can get expensive, especially when I can't just have one martini, mojito, or glass of wine. A few drinks may make me feel better for the moment, but are expensive and not the cure for a bad day or the key to having a good time!
    • Drinking is not necessary to have a good time! Often being sober is more entertaining because you can be the one to explain what people don't remember happening. I rarely drink any more, but I am reflecting on past behaviors. Once the house is in order, I hope to spend more time having friends to the house, using the alcohol we already have and saving money rather than costly nights out!
  • Eating Poorly/Overeating-You need to eat to live, not live to eat! I enjoy eating out with friends and family but I know that my food choices are not always healthy. Eating the wrong foods only aggravate my stomach problems. Though it may tast good going down, often it leaves my body soon after and was not worth the money or the few minutes of pleasure!
    • Stuffing my feelings with food is not an answer.  Rewarding yourself with food is not the answer.  Munching on junk all day is not the answer.  Food is needed to nourish your body, but chosing the right foods is necessary for weight loss.  This is the next thing that I am working on in my journey, eating better for weight loss and to feel better!!
So what are some activities that won't get me into trouble:
  • Cleaning and getting rid of clutter
  • Curling up with a good book 
  • Cuddling with my husband
  • Coffee and conversation with my girlfriends
  • Swimming and Water Aerobics
  • Walking
  • Writing
  • Volunteering 
  • Relaxing
  • Stretching
I am a work in progress. I am constantly evolving a person!  The first step is recognizing that there is a problem.  The next step is getting help and figuring out how to make things better! 

Thursday, March 25, 2010

Hurts So Good!



Pain (any pain--emotional, physical, mental) has a message. The information it has about our life can be remarkably specific, but it usually falls into one of two categories: "We would be more alive if we did more of this," and, "Life would be more lovely if we did less of that." Once we get the pain's message, and follow its advice, the pain goes away.    --Peter McWilliams



I am determined to regain my strength and get back to my normal routine as soon as possible!  I am making some progress, if not just one step at a time.  I had a neurologist appointment today and thankfully there is nothing more serious wrong than mild neuropathy and the fibromyalgia that has plagued me for years.

After a medication reaction sent me that sent me into a month long downward spiral, I am slowly but surely regaining some of my energy.  I think that moving around and getting regular exercise has helped quite a bit, even if I am in pain afterwards.  I walked 17 city blocks today in some pain, and I am proud of myself! I also managed to complete the second class of Water Aerobics, also swimming a bit before and afterwards.

I know that exercising makes me feel good  and that no matter how much it hurts, is something I need to do every day, even just for a little bit!  Now, I have to get the eating in check. Because I have not been feeling well enough to do much of anything, we have been eating a lot of fast foods, which defeat the purpose of this journey.  This weekend I will attempt to make some healthy meals for next week.

I feel good about the progress that I am making so far and feel confident that with each day I will become stronger!  I still have a lot to work on, but my health is my main concern at this moment.  Once I have that in order, hopefully everything else will fall into place!

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

Working Through the Pain




"No matter who you are, no matter what you do, you absolutely, 


positively do have the power to change."

~Bill Phillips~


Last night was my first water aerobics class. I have been in so much pain lately that I have not been able to do much of anything, let alone exercise! But in an effort to get my strength back, to start moving again, and to help me feel better, I started water aerobics!

There were several flights of steps to get to the lockers and changing area, which aggravated my injured hip and knee, but I made it!  The class is from 5:45-6:30 T, TH.  Another woman and my self were probably the youngest in the class, early thirties, and the rest of the class was early 40's-70's.  If an older woman with a cane could keep up, so could I!

The class was enjoyable!! The instructor played hip hop music, which I like to work out to.  We did a lot of stretching, jogging, weights, etc.  I felt good while I was exercising.  But when I came home, that was another story!! I was so stiff and in so much pain, I was miserable!

No matter how much pain I am in, I have to keep moving!!  I am not going to give up! I am going back to WA tomorrow night, but I am going to go to class early to swim first and get my muscles and joints loosened up. I know that diet and exercise will help me relieve stress and cope with my illness!  This is for my health and I need to be able to walk and move around!  I know that I can do this!!!

Monday, March 22, 2010

I Won!!!

In my quest to live a happier, healthier life, I have been reading and blogging a lot lately.  One of the blogs I found was Quarter Life Finances, where the author is trying to avoid a quarter-life crisis by getting her finances and life in order.  To celebrate the 2 year anniversary of her blog, she was giving away a book called  SHOO, Jimmy Choo! and my comment won!


I am quite happy!! I do not usually win anything, so perhaps this is a sign of more positive things to come!  Thanks QL Girl!

Sunday, March 21, 2010

Crunching Some Numbers


I re-joined Spark People today so that I would have a place to track my progress on my fitness and weight loss goals:

  • Get to my ideal weight by 1/1/12
    • I need to consume between 1650-2000 calories/day
    • 186-325 grams of carbs/day
    • 37-78 grams of fat/day
    • 60-175 grams protein/day
    • To lose one U.S. pound (.454 kg), you must burn 3,500 more calories than you take in as food
  • I need to burn 1170 calories/week 
    • Swimming/Water aerobics-1 hr burns 679.68 calories Calorie Calculator Calorie Count
      • I plan on doing Water Aerobics twice weekly Tuesday and Thursday and possibly swimming on the weekends
    • Walking -1hr at a 3.0 Mph, Level, Moderate Pace, Firm Surface burns 560 calories
That is the plan so far!   Water Aerobics on Tuesday!  Here is to the start of a brand new lease on life!!





Saturday, March 20, 2010

Big Changes on the Horizon


I feel as though I am thinking more clearly than  I have in quite some time.  Having a chronic illness, like fibromyalgia, can be extremely debilitating, if you let it take over your life. I have chosen to take my life back from this uncomfortable illness!

Beginning Tuesday, I will be attending water aerobics twice a week.  I am also looking into gentle yoga classes.   I am tired of being sick and tired.  This is my year to change my life for the better!!!

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

Crazy Love, Crazy Life





Things I have learned so far in our six months of marriage:

  • Communication is an essential part of any successful relationship.  
  • Though we may communicate differently (i get worked up and he gets quiet) we know that the best way to deal with any situation is to talk about our feelings and work things out.
  • Opposites do attract!
  • Though our personalities and interests are very different, we respect those differences and learn from each other.We would be boring if we liked all of the same things!
  • Living with a boy is hard work! Let me rephrase that, living with ANYONE is hard work!
  • Neither of us are neat freaks,  our situation might have been easier moving into a new place together, instead of one I shared with my late sister. Hopefully once we de-clutter, things will be much better!
  • Letting yourself love and be loved is the greatest feeling in the world! 
  • It took me a long time to let this happen
  • I love going to bed and waking up every morning with my best friend!
  • Even though he snores and goes to bed later than I do, it is wonderful to be held and have someone to come home to! 
A marriage, like anything else, takes hard work, communication, patience and understanding. It is well worth waiting for! It is well worth fighting for!!